Realization (at last!)

I just realized something....
faith is not a work. It's not something we have to work at. It's just something which is.
and man i am glad Jesus said about "have faith as a mustard seed, and you can move mountains" cos sometimes I sure am not big on the faith department.
sometimes, as much as it pains me to say it, i would prefer to live on my non-existant self righteousness, which is worse than my spelling.
but i am a new man.
and i'm not going to do it, but somehow, God is.

Jordan