when we remember..

"Remember the Creator in the days of your youth, before the times of evil come."
~Ecclesiastes 12:1
Had the most amazing night tonight at youth group! I don't really know how to explain it, but everything just seems alright now. Even though it's not still, but it just feels like its getting better. Almost as if there is somehow hope when there had been despair, light when there had been darkness, love when there had been rejection. And I realize fully now how much I've been missing out on. With God in the background, life was pretty much unbearable. I woke up every morning thinking I had nothing to live for. If life was like a boat, then it felt like I was being strapped to the underside of the ship and being keel-hauled across the seabed.
For once I have a smile on my face which I know will not go away when the jokes over, or when I get under the weather.
After that I got home and picked up my guitar and was just praising God when a song I'd wrote YEARS ago came up. It wasn't one of my best by a long shot, but the words mean so much more to me now than they did back then. I can't even remember it's name, but it was pretty much everything I'd wanted to say.

I've tried to write this song, but the words all came out wrong/ but I think I'm getting it now, I just need to let it all out
And if there's one thing I'm holding onto, then there's one thing I have to say/ If there's one thing I've learnt from this it's to learn from my mistakes
The world is falling to pieces/ Do we know where piece is/ Do we know the answer/ I think I have the answer for you
We're falling pieces but he can put us together/ Cause Jesus loves you and that'll last forever/ No matter what you've done, he can overcome/ Just let it all go, cause now I know/ We're falling pieces but now we're whole
Are you listening to this song, I can't see what's going on/ I can't see past the mask you're holding now, but it's time to let it all out

Man it's incredible, when I was playing it, it seemed almost as if I was singing those words to myself. It's just one of those songs which really mean something special to you, even if they don't quite work out in the band situation..
Anyway, hope you all have a good night, and God bless

Jordan